16-01-2013, 07:26 PM
Yes Kent, it's ALL in my head! If it stayed there, there would be no problem at all, no-one can see inside my head (just as well really 
). But the fact is it pysically affects other things which is the issue here. Everyone worries about things, i'm well aware of that, but not necessarily to the point where it affects physical things to such an extent that 'normal' life becomes very difficult.
Oh and, yes I know everythings been touched somewhere along the line, I won't eat anything that says 'handmade' on it, would muld much rather it was made by a machine! But then of course, a human will have cleaned that machine lol, and possibly put thier own germs there!
What about cold food, sandwhiches for example - you cant cook away germs there, if theres germs, they'll still be there when you eat it! Then again, I know a lot of people dont wash thier hands, especially after using the loo or whatever and it makes me cringe at the thought of what they're putting in thier mouths. Here's a scenario for you - say you go for a wee in a public toilet - whether or not you've washed your hands, you'll probably touch the door handle on the way out - you're touching the same door handle that the guy before you touched without washing his hands - then you eat your sandwhich and you're effectively putting that guys cock in your mouth. Think about that next you leave a public loo.
Oh and don't even mention germs disappearing in cooked food, EVERY damn night I have the same fear that the meat isn't cooked properly, chicken/turkey/fish usually as I dont like beef (or horse lol) so I'm sitting there looking at every single peice I cut thinking 'is that pink? is it hot enough? maybe its not cooked? or is it just bad light?' EVERY SINGLE f*cking NIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!! Again, it does my head in, but I just cant stand the thought that it might make me ill. And then if it was a bit pink (usually poor light!) I'll wory about it for the entire evening and all night too probably....
Well how can I stand my ground when my Mum pays for the whole house and her bf pays a bit of rent - I pay for nothing so I cant really say anything. I'm attempting to speak to my mum, but I dont know how to do it in a way that doesnt sound pathetic and whiny and like Im letting her down as a failure. I also dont want to make things even more awkward with my mum. Then again, Ive avoided seeing her for 3 days atm....
). But the fact is it pysically affects other things which is the issue here. Everyone worries about things, i'm well aware of that, but not necessarily to the point where it affects physical things to such an extent that 'normal' life becomes very difficult.Oh and, yes I know everythings been touched somewhere along the line, I won't eat anything that says 'handmade' on it, would muld much rather it was made by a machine! But then of course, a human will have cleaned that machine lol, and possibly put thier own germs there!
What about cold food, sandwhiches for example - you cant cook away germs there, if theres germs, they'll still be there when you eat it! Then again, I know a lot of people dont wash thier hands, especially after using the loo or whatever and it makes me cringe at the thought of what they're putting in thier mouths. Here's a scenario for you - say you go for a wee in a public toilet - whether or not you've washed your hands, you'll probably touch the door handle on the way out - you're touching the same door handle that the guy before you touched without washing his hands - then you eat your sandwhich and you're effectively putting that guys cock in your mouth. Think about that next you leave a public loo.
Oh and don't even mention germs disappearing in cooked food, EVERY damn night I have the same fear that the meat isn't cooked properly, chicken/turkey/fish usually as I dont like beef (or horse lol) so I'm sitting there looking at every single peice I cut thinking 'is that pink? is it hot enough? maybe its not cooked? or is it just bad light?' EVERY SINGLE f*cking NIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!! Again, it does my head in, but I just cant stand the thought that it might make me ill. And then if it was a bit pink (usually poor light!) I'll wory about it for the entire evening and all night too probably....
Well how can I stand my ground when my Mum pays for the whole house and her bf pays a bit of rent - I pay for nothing so I cant really say anything. I'm attempting to speak to my mum, but I dont know how to do it in a way that doesnt sound pathetic and whiny and like Im letting her down as a failure. I also dont want to make things even more awkward with my mum. Then again, Ive avoided seeing her for 3 days atm....