Job Hunt and Health Issues

[Paul_13]

I suffer from bouts of depression now and again and you've got to battle out of it. I was in the depth of drug addiction going back about 5 years ago, I've been to counselling, narcotics anonymous and been through hell and back from depression /anxiety/paranoia

Waking up every morning wanting to kill yourself is not a nice thing.

Depression is a f*cking horrible thing, makes you think irrationally and do f*cking stupid stuff. I can sense it coming on and can normally get myself out of it, but with everything that's going on with my dad and the cancer at the moment it's f*cking hard, real hard.

Doesn't help my wife knee is f*cked and my brother in law is a psycho and we've just been told his mental health is "unstable " and the parent in law have gone away leaving us with in case of emergency numbers (the looney bin)... Great. Not as though he's tried killing half the family in their sleep with a knife....

I'm not going to lie but I cringe a hell of lot reading what you've written sometimes. You need to stop being so negative, trust me I've been there and it does you no favours. I know it's hard to do but you really need to see the positive in things. Just think there are people in this world that are in a lot worse state than yourself

Sorry if you've taken offense to this but that's just my 2p

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I've found something that has helped massively in a weird way is something called 5 htp from holland and Barrett.
Basically replaces the serotonin in your brain and helps regulate nearly everything in your body as well so may help with your ibs