Yeah standard map...none of the mappers will guarantee a DPF safe map so I won't be having one yet.
I don't expect to make real progress, same thing happens every year, we have horrible occasions like xmas that really cripple me, then I put in a lot of time, effort and money to get somewhere but before it happens another of these horrible occasions cripples me and it just continues in waves like that. Reality is I'm trapped in a situation I can't cope with, dreading a future I can't cope with, and with no exit that I can see.... Try finding motivation and positivity from that.
There is also no extra time or leaving earlier. Everything I do is a race to get things done between people leaving and returning...which are both unknowns now! I have max of 3 hours to go out and get back on a weekday if I eat dinner at 11 (which will ruin my guts for going out, but theres no other option as unfortunately humans need food). Though that 3 hours quickly disappears when I've just left after spending half an hour on the loo and my stomach goes 'nope...' and I have to spend another 30 mins in there. Then you've got traffic and slow people to further reduce that time. And on top of that my sister is here more often than not now so it's near impossible to get dinner let alone go out after. Someone has been home every day for the last 8 days now which has just completely ruined me basically, it'll take weeks to get back from that, it's not 2 steps forward and 1 back, this is 2 steps forward and 6 back.
Trying to fight everything all the time just doesn't work unfortunately, and until I have a solid routine and more time to do things there won't be any long term progress.
I don't expect to make real progress, same thing happens every year, we have horrible occasions like xmas that really cripple me, then I put in a lot of time, effort and money to get somewhere but before it happens another of these horrible occasions cripples me and it just continues in waves like that. Reality is I'm trapped in a situation I can't cope with, dreading a future I can't cope with, and with no exit that I can see.... Try finding motivation and positivity from that.
There is also no extra time or leaving earlier. Everything I do is a race to get things done between people leaving and returning...which are both unknowns now! I have max of 3 hours to go out and get back on a weekday if I eat dinner at 11 (which will ruin my guts for going out, but theres no other option as unfortunately humans need food). Though that 3 hours quickly disappears when I've just left after spending half an hour on the loo and my stomach goes 'nope...' and I have to spend another 30 mins in there. Then you've got traffic and slow people to further reduce that time. And on top of that my sister is here more often than not now so it's near impossible to get dinner let alone go out after. Someone has been home every day for the last 8 days now which has just completely ruined me basically, it'll take weeks to get back from that, it's not 2 steps forward and 1 back, this is 2 steps forward and 6 back.
Trying to fight everything all the time just doesn't work unfortunately, and until I have a solid routine and more time to do things there won't be any long term progress.